A few days ago, my sweet Shih-Tzu Bogart got in a scuffle with my sister's kitten. Just to give you some history on the situation, Shih-Tzu's are highly friendly, amicable dogs who enjoy the company of other people and animals - including cats. He is also very well socialized and doesn't meet a stranger and has had the good luck to only meet friendly animals... So when he encountered my sister's kitten (who was born in a barn and grew up with very little human contact until the day my sister brought her home), you can imagine what happened. Anyway to make a long story short, Bogart's got a boo-boo on his eye. The first day I was just a little concerned but it was just this little red blotch on his eye to the left of his iris... This was Wenesday. Yesterday it had cleared up to a tiny little raised red dot. Today the raised dot is gone but it looks like he burst one of those little blood vessels in his eye, or maybe that it's just irritated. I can't decide if it looks better or worse, either way it has me worried. The only consolation to me so far is that he hasn't seemed bothered by it at all... Tomorrow Jason -my fiance- and I are taking him to our vet to get down to business about everything.
Anyway... A little about myself. I was never really good at coming up with something interesting when it came to this... I always dread the first day in a new class or group setting and you have to go through the perfunctory "tell us something about yourself" speal. I mean it seems to me that the people who have an immediate answer usually come up with something shallow that only covers the surface of who they are, or maybe isn't even them. Perhaps it is who they want to be. Then you have the people who are reluctant to say anything. I usually fall in that catergory. I'm not typically the wallflower-please-don't-notice-me type, but I absolutely cringe when it comes around to me. I mean how do you sum up 21 years of your life in a hobby? I guess the best way to sum me up, is that there is no way to sum me up. I never learned to try to stuff myself into one pidgeon hole, so what's the point in trying now? I have a hundred thousand different facets to my personality and I'm only beginning to learn about them. The one thing I have known about myself throughout my entire life is this: I am a woman of contradictions. I'm an artist, but painfully pragmatic. I'm in touch with my feminine side moreso than a lot of the girls in my neck of the woods, but I have a no-frills, no-froufrou approach to life and my relationships with others. I have a servant's heart, but struggle with having a selfish nature. I am a notorious planner, but I don't know where my life is going- with the exception that I am marrying the man of my dreams next year. I love art, music, writing, reading, languages, but I'm not much of an intellectual. I love spending time with my fiance and my dog, and I kind of have a problem with allowing friends into my world. They just kind of hang around the outskirts and are more like spectators. I don't really know how to pursue people. Maybe this blog is going to help me see into myself because I feel like I am this whole world I have yet to discover.
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